Downward Spirals

First the spiral... Logically I know that I'm liked, loved and actually quite popular. Emotionally I feel rejected and unwanted at the moment. I know that it's silly and random events caused plans to be canceled. I still can't shake the feeling though. Work continues to be a drain as I don't have anything interesting to keep me occupied during the day. I'm counting the days until my mini-vacation on the 17th (19 currently) and hope that the break will help to lift my mood.

Now some good... I've been looking into learning watch and clock repair as a hobby. I've found a few classes at a local college but I've missed them semester. Today I also found two online classes that teach the basics. The online classes are $50 and the kits cost about $380. I think I'll take the online ones to get started. They're less expensive and buying the parts and tools in a kit is easier, though less fun, than trying to find the individual tools.

While saving up the money for the big kit I want to look for some small kits to build. Just something to get my hands involved in building without breaking the bank. I can see the end of the debt and I don't want to derail that, but I need something to occupy some hours and TV and video games don't cut it at the moment.

There Was a Time

These days are drifting through me
Like faces in the clouds
Memories lift me up
Stare me down
I open a window close the door
And watch the shadows cross the floor
Never talk too much about it

There was a time
When all of our dreams were spun like sunshine
Through a kaleidoscope
Lit the corners of our minds
There was a time

Love found us clear as diamonds
With eyes as bright as stars
Never thought that we'd
Fall that far
Our world was turning back around
And soon our feet would touch the ground
Never talked too much about it

There was a time
When all of our dreams were spun like sunshine
Through a kaleidoscope
Lit the corners of our minds
When I held her close on the day she left
And she wished me love and happiness
Now I wonder if I ever cross her mind
There was a time

Well I held her close on the day she left
She wished me love and happiness
Now I wonder if I ever cross her mind
Now I wonder if I ever cross her mind
Now I wonder if I ever cross her mind
There was a time